Grape

Went out tonight. Couldnt find anything to wear because nothing fit right cause I am a fat lard ass. Decided on a purple shirt. Probably looked like a grape. Drank beer and now I am sitting in bed semi drunk trying to fall asleep because i have to get up in a couple of hours but am pissed at myself for drinking and not going to the gym. I just want to be thin and to get a boyfriend. I am sick of being fat and alone.