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Ugg still feel like crap. I had to take off work today to go to the doctors to get a physical for my work.... I hate being home because i feel like such a waste. I also don't have a car at the moment so today I have to go out and buy a new battery for the stupid thing. I can't wait until I can save enough to get my own. I have been trying to watch my spending... This is also a good way to watch my calories because I can use my saving money as an excuse to not go out and eat!! 

That being said, went to the doctor and got weighed. They weighed me in my jeans and sweater and I still weighed less than what I use to weigh naked soooo that got me excited!! But I am still a fat whale so I am not that excited. I am heading to the gym tonight. They started a boxing class before my usual class so I think I am going to try that tonight. I have a lot of pent up aggression and I think this is a better way to get it out than some of my other ways. 


Ok so this is why I hate being home. I was bored and decided to go on facebook... yea what a freaken great idea! Went on the boy's page and there are all these pictures with him and this girl and they are posting to each other like we use to post. I know we were never really anything but this really hurts. I don't know why but I legitimately have a pain in my chest and it feels like I have been punched in the stomach. I am on the verge of tears. I just don't understand. I have never been in a relationship and I went on my first ever "real" date with this kid. And then he just up and stops talking to me. What the hell I DON'T GET IT!!! I seriously can not be that ugly!  I try to play it off like it doesn't really bother me but it does. I don't know how much more of this I can take. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????